i don't understand

this is going to be a very quick entry and it's not chronological at all. but i have to write about this because it's been really bugging me.

so one of the things i miss the most about the US is going to church and getting to worship, freely and uninterupted, for a half hour or so. the worship is not what i would consider worship at all. it's a song that feels really stiff, then someone talks, then an even stiffer song in english, then another person says something. it's like the songs are just put in because they're supposed to be there. it doesn't feel like it coming from within.

so last night i went to a reach out that the youth held and they had a time of "worship" at the beginning. all the songs were in english. all of them. there was one that they had one verse in german but then they immediately sang it again in english. i just don't understand why they sing in english so much.

i asked hubert and sylvia and they said that the younger generation here thinks that english is just better. if there's a song in german they'll translate it and sing it in english because they think it sounds better. but they problem is that, while a lot of people here know some english, they don't really understand everything. and then it hit me. that may be why "worship" feels so stiff and rigid. because they aren't worshiping in their own language they have to concentrate really hard to just get the words out, which they don't really even understand, and then they have no room left to really praise God in the way He deserves to be praised. that's what i'm perceiving at least. it's really hard for me to see that since what i want to do is to help people worship God freely and without any sort of hinderance. i'll write more later after i get to talk to some of the youth about it.